Logical (Olivia Rodrigo)

I wish you liked me the same. You think I’m weird. Don't you?

I stare at the mirror, terrified of what I have become and scared of my own shadow. My skin feels too tight for my body. My wardrobe changed completely. I don't look the same as I did 3 months ago. My hair is curled and dyed. My figure looks different. Much different.  While I still stare in the mirror, my stomach growls. I wonder why I changed myself for you?

You see, I never thought of you as more than a friend. Until April. I saw you in a new light. Nice and kind. Caring and sweet. More than anyone else saw. You changed my perspective on the world. I had less hate in my heart. You got me thinking 2+2=5 or that I'm the love of your life. But its impossible to change you. You changed how I saw everything. Math, writing, reading, science, social studies. You changed it. Everytime I listen to a love poem or read a love story I’ll think of you and wonder the same thing. But you knew that didn’t you.

You knew how I felt. You’ve known how I felt. So why did you try to hide? We could have still been friends. You could have tried to make an effort to talk to me. You could have tried to stay friends. But once you found out, we drifted away like an iceberg. Just because you didn't try to tell me anything at all. Not that you don't like me. Not that you don't feel the same. Not that you love my image and not my personality. I’m fighting it and praying it will go away. Just like how you went away from me.

I liked you a lot, but I want to know why you lied to me? Every time I would talk about you, it was always good. Even when people only saw the negatives in you, I stood up for you. I told them I like you. I was the one who stood up for you. Not just because I liked you, but I saw things in you no one else saw. I never cared how you looked. But everyone else did. But you wouldn't know. Would you?  I would stare up at my ceiling at night, making fantasies that you liked me back and that the walks home were more to you. Like you looked forward to walking with me. But I know you would never feel the same towards me as I do you. To be honest I don't know if you like me at all. I was the one who saw past your flaws.When you see me in the halls I hope you think of what I wrote and that I stood up for you when all of my friends hated on you even after I confessed and you said nothing. That's how much I loved you. But you would never know that. You know how I know that? Because I know someone like you and someone like me could NEVER be together. Ever.